Not, drifting sadly along, taking what is offered to you and not daring to ask for a second helping, or a side order of coleslaw, with a pint of beer, please.
What would you create room for if this was it? How would you show up differently? What would you be willing to risk? Where would your two feet choose to stand?
End the autopilot. Be as big as you want.
Stick a capital L on that life of yours.